Do you ever want to run away somewhere and hide from everything, as if that will make all the bad stuff magically disappear?
Sometimes I feel that way, though I don’t think I have any right to.
My cancer was diagnosed in the early stages. I had ample insurance coverage and medical care. I was and continue to be blessed with loving, supportive family.
Whether it’s a blessing or not, I have a fighting spirit.
But if the tables were turned, if the disease had spread, if I couldn’t afford that medical team, would I feel the same? Would I still want to fight?
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January 12, 2017
Six days since Chemo #1 and feeling great, the worst of it behind me. A little queasiness for the first few days, then back to my old self. Best I can describe it is like mild flu symptoms or feeling a little “off.” If this is as bad as it gets, I’ll take it! They say it gets worse as you go along, but then I’ll be done.
Ready for a laugh? I was filling out a general health questionnaire for an upcoming orthopedist appointment. First question on the list is “How would you rate your general health…excellent, very good, good, fair or poor?
Seriously? I have cancer. Does that count? I only feel like crap occasionally because of the stuff they’re filling my system with.
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January 1, 2017
Happy New Year! Prepare for battle.
Sometimes I feel like this isn’t really happening, like I’ll wake up tomorrow and be completely healthy. Like I can wish this away.
I know I don’t have a choice. Well, actually, I do, but know all too well how that will end and I don’t want my kids watching my body decay as it’s eaten away from the inside out. I don’t want to leave them standing around my grave wondering why, in the name of everything that is Holy, I didn’t seek medical help.
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